Am I still middle-aged I wonder? Probably not ....but I care not. I got used to the getting older thing ages ago.
I was so stressed today and the boredom of lockdown got to me.
I want to write essays and poetry about the importance of not hurting women and it actually caused me a lot of tension.
How do I communicate in order to affect change? Does anyone care? Are they even listening?
These are not new questions, they are the age-old inner demons that every creator battles with.... I am a cliche.
I also got stressed over the Paganini Caprice. It is hard to keep time.....But I will persevere because a challenge is another stress factor to beat the boredom.
I find I am being very repetitive. I do the same things each day, have the same thoughts, all I do is make art films and play cello, even the cat is bored. Lockdown is getting to me so I bought Prosecco. I feel better already.